Day 11

Pleasure: Today I took a long nap. I deserved it from the rough (and day) night I had.
Pray: Today I am praying for God to help me forgive someone (I can't say who). Right now, all I feel is bitterness and sadness, but I know in God's time, He will help me forgive. I am so thankful for my faith; most of the time it feels like that's all I know I have (sometimes the things people say to try to console me make me feel more alone).
Love: Today I put away dinner for Heidi and Gavin. I rubbed Heidi's back through contractions. She is so strong and brave, and so incredibly beautiful during labor (I hope it's labor; I hope we are headed to the hospital tonight! I can't wait to be her photographer!). I am thankful for Heidi's pregnancy because it has been a very good distraction for me (plus she takes good care of me).

I need your prayers. Pray for me, and I'll pray for you.

Before a heartache can ever touch my life it has to go through Your hands
And even though I keep asking why
I keep asking why
No matter what, I’m gonna love You
No matter what I’m gonna need You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain but if not
I’ll trust You, no matter what
 
I keep replaying these lyrics. They are like balm to my heart and soul, even though I am aching like mad.